Don’t vacillate.
From the Lojong for the Layperson booklet:
For those of us who are gardeners, we know the
frustration of finding a ripe, delicious vegetable or fruit nibbled on by a
bird or animal. They never seem to eat all of it, just a few bites before
leaving it abandoned on the ground. We may respond to lojong the same way. Our
first introduction may leave us excited and enthusiastic, but then work, family
matters, hobbies or social activities may distract us. Soon we’ve forgotten
about our intention to practice. Eventually though, we experience enough
suffering that we are reminded of our spiritual commitment. We start out
passionate about our practice once again, yet sooner or later those same
disruptions or diversions veer us off track. We may keep repeating this cycle
over and over, possibly coming to the conclusion that lojong is not useful at
all. We fail to realize our lack of steady practice was what produced no
long-term results. Even small, consistent amounts of practice are better than
intense periods followed by nothing. The cumulative effects of lojong will be
realized when we train on a regular basis.
Photo: A pear partially eaten and
discarded by a squirrel.
By
1950, 70% of American homes enjoyed hot and cold running water. It was a
wonderful bathing improvement, unless someone took an extended hot shower. All
the heated water would quickly be used up, leaving only cold water available
for the next person. It would take time for the water to reheat again. I’ve
often practiced in the same unbalanced way – full of heat to begin with which
soon turned cold. My over-the-top enthusiasm would create impossible standards
that were difficult to maintain. I might decide, for instance, that I’d
meditate an hour each morning and an hour each evening without fail. But as
soon as an unexpected event threw my schedule out of kilter, I was ready to
chuck everything. As months passed, I might pick it up again with the same fervor only to have
it disrupted again. This type of “all or nothing” thinking has never produced a
steady, consistent practice for me. For that I need to temper my excitement
with a more realistic approach – neither hot nor cold but warm.
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